the last day being 20

Date: 15 September 2009

Duration:1042pm

Mood: i felt my body getting warmer. Tired

It's the last day being 20.

Every year, i would forget my wishes. Or should i just confess it, i don't really have wishes to make for my each b'day. There's always a belief in me that everything is on my hand, i would be the one who make the things turn out the way i want it to be.

Despite that, i would make three proper wishes this year since this year is the 21st year.

Wish #1:

I wish for happy working and learning environment.

Duration of the wish: Forever

I wish i would meet approachable and friendly employers , sincere and helpful colleages in my working life especially during my industrial training period. May me be granted good bosses and a good lecturer in my industrial training assessment. I wish i would be working and learning in a happy environment.

Wish #2:

I wish for helping hands whenever and ever.

Duration of the wish: Forever

I wish over the path of my life journey, there would always be helping hands whenever and ever especially when i am facing difficulties and dilemmas. Be the helping hands from my friends and family or a stranger, i would appreciate it of all times.

Wish #3:

*SECRET*

As for wish #3, i shall keep it with myself. May all my three wishes come true.

the 2nd day - Minasan, @rigatou Gozaimasu

Date:14 September 2009

Duration: 1539

Mood:It feels really awkward to know the ugly truth, but it feels really lucky to know them all.

Really have to thank everyone for my b'day surprise planning. It felt really sweet and warm to have you guys celebrating for me

To Stef, Kalyana:

Millions of thanks to my two best friends who celebrated my b'day on the 05 of september. I really appreciate what you guys have planned for me. I love the five pieces of cakes. For every single munch i had, i felt the warmness and happiness you two had brought me. It's really touching to have you guys purposely back from KL and Cyber to celebrate this little girl's 21st.I really like the dress you two had specially chosen for me. Love it lots. Thank you very much. Muacks muacks...May our friendship be an everlasting one. Keep in tact always. Love you two.

To HC, Sop, Ant:

Really appreciate what you guys have chosen for me in that little "mooncake" box. I really love every item in there. I promise i would learn make up and utilise fully the presents you guys gave me.. Millions and thanks for the surprise planning too. Though it was as i expected( because i am granted a strong sixth sense ability and i could read people's minds..bangga-nya!!!hahaha, just bear with my insanity), i really enjoyed the celebration to the fullest. May our friendship be a forever lasting one even after our graduation from MMU in 2011.

To YH, KS, BM:

It was really touching to have three Datuks purchasing a little dress for this little girl. Though i am turning into stage of adult, it would be a great pleasure to remain as girl. But i won't mind wearing sexy dress :) The dress was real sweet with two little Hush puppies covered in that little bear bear box. I really appreciate the time and energy you guys spend on shopping for my presents. I knew it would be head-cracking to think of what presents to buy for me. Billions of thanks for the birthday planning especially to KimSen. Not forgetting Yi Hui whose soul purposely flied back from Bukit Beruang to Dataran Pahlawan just for my celebration and Lee Ban Meng who purposely drove back to Dataran after his IVAQ meeting. I know you guys are really tired after such a long day hectics.I appreciate every single thing you three did for me and i would remember it throughout my life.:)

To Stella, Yy, ND

Thanks for the floating mat and the turning back time-machine you guys bought me. I believe that in one day i would be floating in that Mat just like Aladin with my Little Hush Puppies,KimSen and Yi Hui. As for the watch, I like it. Though i don't really like round watch, the watch was indeed an elegant one. For sure, i would wear it and let it gets me back to the past if possible.HAHA. Billions of thanks for the b'day celebration. I knew the three of you purposely came back just for the celebration. I really appreciate it. Thank you very much.

To Vann, Ah Shen, and Christine and Abu( @Vis)

Though you guys could not make it to the celebration, i thank you guys for the present and the sweet wishings. The dress looks elegant.I like it. I wish the friendship since PM06 would continues even after we got seperated after our graduation. I could still remember working together with you guys un R@ce-2-Point. It's indeed a sweet memory. Avis---I would always call you Abu because i just like calling you ABU for no reason. Just bear with me, Abu. Thanks a lot. May all of you be blessed and enjoyed your 21st year to the maximum. Love you guys.

To Michelle

Though you left early and could not make it to the celebration. I thank for your wishings. More importantly, 14 September should be a memorable day for you. I hope everything would turn out right as time passes. May you be happy always. I would be ready to be a listener if you need any.:)

Mina, Arigatou Gozaimasu

Really thanks for the b'day surprise,the b'day , the b'day wishings, the b'day presents and the happiness and warmness all of you have brought me all these while..:)

the 3rd day - H@ppy B'day, Michelle~

Date:13 september 2009

Duration: unrecorded

Mood: exciting

There are three more days left before my 21st. It's really exciting waiting for its arrival.

Tomorrow would be my another friend's 21st b'day. She's Michelle. I used to spell her name Micheal instead of michelle, unconsciosly i did that. As i was diagnosed to suffer from reading and writing difficulties, i could not identify the spelling of both names. However, i could now clearly idenfity the spelling between these two names and spell our her names correctly.

We would be having her celebration in Dreambox K-tv tomorrow. Hope it would be an enjoyable one.

H@ppy 21st to Michelle.

May you go through the path of your life with ease and with aid of friends and family around you when you meet any difficulties. May You be blessed and be happy always~~

the 4th day - H@ppy birthday, Dad

Date:12 september 2009

Duration: 1147pm

Mood: hot

It's dad's b'day today(Chinese calender)

we had our dinner outsite tonight.

Though it's just an usual family dinner, we felt warm getting together.It has been quite long since the last time we sat together and had our family dinner.

H@ppy B'day, Dad.

May you stay fit and healthy always.

the 5th day - Falling for you

Fallin' For You – Colbie Caillat

I don't know but

I think

I maybe

Fallin' for you

Dropping so quickly

Maybe I should

Keep this to myself

Waiting 'til I

Know you better

I am trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I'm scared of what you'll say

So I'm hiding what I'm feeling

But I'm tired of

Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time

Just thinking about ya

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life

and now I found yaI

don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

Fallin' for you

As I'm standing here

And you hold my hand

Pull me towards you

And we start to dance

All around us

I see nobodyHere in silence

It's just you and me

I'm trying

Not to tell you

But I want to

I'm scared of what you'll say

So I'm hiding what I'm feeling

But I'm tired of

Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my timeJust thinking about ya

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life

and now I found yaI don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it

My heart is racing

The emotions keep spilling out

I've been spending all my time

Just thinking about yaI don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my lifeand now I found ya

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for youI'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it

I want you all around me

And now I just can't hide it

I think I'm fallin' for youCan't stop thinking about it

I want you all around me

And now I just can't hide it

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

OohhOh no noOh no no no

Oh I'm fallin' for ya

Copyright (c) Universal Music Sdn Bhd

the 6th day-Done Versus Undone

DONE VERSUS UNDONE

When i was turning 18:

1. To slim down and be 40's( weight)--> DONE
2. To have slimmer face-->HALFLY DONE
3. To have waist of 22 inches--> UNDONE
4. To have double eyelids-->DONE
5. To shop for my own clothes-->DONE
6. To be the first one picked home after tuitions-->UNDONE
7. To be fair in complextion--> PROGRESSING
8. To have my own room designed the way i want to be --> HALFLY DONE
9. To have my personal computer-->DONE
10. To shop in KL with friends occasionally-->DONE
11. To have my hair turning back black and healthy-->HALF DONE
12. To polish up my English and let no one says" Chinese-Educated Girls use broken English and they could never get even an A in SPM"-->DONE
13. To learn up formatting computer-->DONE
14. To drive whenever and whereever i want-->DONE
15. To have friends' gathering whenever and ever-->Considered DONE
16. To have better socialization skill-->Progressing
17. To purchase a MP3-->DONE and it's spoilt.
18. To wear contact lens to class everyday--DONE

When i was turning 20:

1. To take up yoga -->DONE
2. To be financially independent--HALFLY DONE
3. To purchase a mobile without depending on anyone's financial assistant-->DONE
4. To be involved in an event as a high committee in life of university-->DONE
5. To have someone to care and be cared about-->UNDONE
6. To travel out of Malacca with friends-->DONE
7. To find a suitable facial products for my face-->HALFY DONE
8. To really enjoy a prom night with courmates--> UNDONE
9. To polish up my presentation skill-->UNDONE
10. To keep my hair back waist length.--> UNDONE
11. To get at least Band 4 for my MUET-->DONE
12. To use more than one route to campus-->DONE
13. To work part-time just for fun-->DONE
14. NEVER get lost again-->HALFY DONE
15. To keep intact with my close friends who study elsewhere-->DONE and still doing
16. To pay up my education fees myself-->DONE
17. To celebrate X'mas with friends-->DONE
18. To have family picture displayed on my desk.--UNDONE
19. To be freed from home curfew.--Progressing
20. To wear dress more-->Halfly DONE

When i am turning 21:

1. To purchase a lappy without depending on anyone's financial assistant-->DONE
2. To purchase a Digital camera without depending on anyone's financial assistance-->UNDONE
3. To purchase my second MP3 without depending on anyone's financial assistance-->UNDONE
4. To purchase my first branded watch without depending on anyone's financial assistance-->UNDONE
5. To learn up makeup-->Progressing
6. To try colored contact lens-->DONE( the surrounding of my IRIS are turning grey...Is this normal?)
7. To find the one who understand me-->Progressing
8. To own my own house/ condo--> Progressing
9. To possess my own car--> Progressing
10. To join the trend of shopping online-->DONE
11. To travel out of Malaysia with friends-->Progressing
12. To drive outstation without getting lost-->Progressing
13. To travel out of Malacca all by myself without getting lost or kidnapped-->Progressing
14. To give myself three presents for 21 years old--> one third DONE
15. To have family reunion dinner during the coming CNY eve.--Progressing
16. To have family celebrating my birthday.--> I USED TO HAVE ONE..when i was 3~:)
17. To have my industrial training else where--> SERIOUSLY CONSIDERING THIS
18. To polish up my social and communication skills--> Progressing
19. To have a better relationship with my family-->Progressing
20. To cultivate a higher EQ and patience in me-->Progressing
21. To have an idea pn how my house internet connect themselves-->DONE( i finally know how the wires connect after so many years)

the 7th day

Date: 090909

Duration:0909 pm

Mood: sleepy

Left one more week before my 21st birthday.

I felt tired and sleepy after coming back from my second last chess class.

The last class would be held on this Friday. I was wondering whether i should attend it as everything was fully covered for finals. The last lesson would be a revision class. I guess he might be giving some GUIDELINEs for the finals.

Today is a special day. It's once in a million that all the three nines have a gathering and get united in a day. It's a week just right before my birthday too.

I promise myself i would give myself three presents for my coming birthday.

Two are with me. Left one more~~~ What should i buy for myself???

It's 090909, 0909pm... I finish this post.