" The Other Truth "

Date: 30 August 2011 Duration:2225 I FINALLY LOG-IN again after such a long pause.

Seeing my last post dated in April 23rd, it has really been a pause in my Duration.

I have not been blogging not solely because i am really busy. It's because i have some how lost the passion to blog about my thought and my life, especially life after beginning my working life as auditor. I started the job about two months ago. Well, i felt joy when i received my very first salary slip.

"What's auditor?" that's one of the quite surprising questions i was throwned to when i introduced my job. Not many know what auditors do, don't they? Well, i am sure that my own father does not, and till now, he does not.

Auditor is auditor. I found myself tired of explaining, be it in anything, be it to anyone. It does not matter anymore to have nobody to understand me.

I just finished watching a HK drama series. It was THE OTHER TRUTH, a drama potraying the dilemmas faced by a bunch of lawyers. Well, there is a saying that i quite agree with, " in life, there is not always RIGHT and WRONG, it could be a GRAY areas".

In the final episode, it was really a pathetic sight of "him" being killed in the prison. When you lost someone, perhaps it's just too late to miss the loss. You would probably understand what i mean if you watch this drama too.

Malaysian passport~^^

Date: 23 April 2011 Duration:737pm

I woke up really early today. As early as 645am, i departed to Ayer Keroh to apply for my first passport. Hearing from those who have been to the passport department, there would be crowds in the Department as early as 7am. When i arrived around 715am, there were two person waiting at the counter of forms and "nombor giliran" . I was the third.

Too bad, i did not have any form. I thought i need to requeue again for the second time to submit my application. No, not only i did not queue up for the second time, i was the first to be served. My "nombor giliran" was "1001". Lolz, it must be an amazing thing isn't it? My day started with great luck. Someone there brought extra forms. I requested one from him. Thanks a lot. A millions thanks i should say.

The queue was getting longer as more people added in the queue. It opened at 8am sharp. The two person in front of me submitted their forms. Despite that, the auntie right in front of me was rejected for not submitting two passport photos together with the application. I submitted my applications together with two passport photos and one copy of photocopied IC. I was the first one to enter the waiting hall, sitting right in front of those service counters which only one was on service at that time. Waiting just for a few minutes, i was served and i was told to collect my passport at 930am. That was about 815am.

Seeing that it was quite a long duration. I went for McD breakfast at the nearest branch. It has been such a long time ago i had my last McD Hash Brown. If i am not mistaken, the last time i had it was during my Broga Hill trip in KL.^^ That was really more than half a year ago.

I split milo in Mc D today and that's really embarassing. Well, i had requsted the employee there to clean up my seat before i left.^^. Sorry for the troubles.^^

I headed back to collect my passport. I met my ex-classmate today. She's Sin Yee. It was such a coincidence~She was accompanying his brother for passport application as well. When i was back there, the whole department was filled with people. The crowd was made up of 90% Chineses.Hmm... i wonder why.

I got my first Malaysian Passport....Hong Kong Trip in two more weeks.... I just could wait no more.^^

It officially ended!!!

Date: 17 April 2011

Duration: 1031pm

Wee... It's the official end of my internship( (17 of APRIL!!!!) and I AM GRADUATING..!!! This feel should be great and ...well... i do not know why ...i just do not feel the eager and the joy of graduating YET.

Perhaps it's because of tomorrow is still a working day for me.

You'd probably be laughing at me if i tell you that i just found out my HK trip is in the 9 till 13 May. Well, forgive my ignorance. Sometimes, i just feel too tired to care too much and just want to NOT know about IT first until there's a need to GET KNOW of it.THAT'S ME!!!

Recently, i am so engrossed in a game called the MONOPOLY in Facebook. Monopoly, a really familiar game to you too, isn't it? Well, this game draws lots of childhood memory. I have been playing this game since last week. Frankly speaking, it's kind of boring game actually but i just do not know why would i still be playing it. Perhaps i am just too bored and could only entertain myself with MONOPOLY.^^

It's end of the internship, which mean it's time to produce the internship final report as well. The due date is 6 May.... nah... the due date is still far far away... i could probably take my own sweet time to get it done. Hopefully, i have the ideas on what to write about at that time. You know, writing moods really comes with inspiration to write as well, be it a simple blog-post or this kind- of-important final report.

Hmm... Isn't it great if tomorrow i could just sleep till noon and have a little shopping?

Too bad too bad, it's just not the time yet. I am awaiting the end of these two weeks.!!!

Goodbye

Date:14 April 2011

Duration:1144pm

It's the 14. and left few more minutes i should say, it's the end of my internship with this audit firm. Today should be a day of releasing for me and coursemates. Well, it does not seem to be a special days to me. It was not my last day working. Though tomorrow is holiday, bringing back work to do is not an abnormal phenomena anymore. I am staying back for two more weeks, bringing back works to do is still considerable. As for Sri, he is really ending his training and yet he needs to come out with a report before he finally off from this audit firm. The team leader asked him to email the draft report to him once he's done, isn't this a bit harsh?

He is not just an example that i could mention, there was another trainee previously working in this audit firm who had worked overtime before she left. She even needed to come back on Saturday after the last Friday she had in the firm to draft her report. I started to worry actually.The last job that i am going to take would determine my destiny. The higher the audit fee, the worse would i be. Or should i be more optimistic? The much more i would learn?

Seeing this two real life examples and hearing so much more examples from colleages, i need to be frank that i am really in worries.

I am still in the previous weeks job. There are too many changes to make, with each changes getting more and more major and causing bigger and bigger impacts to the reports i'm drafting.

Firstly, it was the disclosure amendments from partners, and next is the changes in adoption of PERS to FRS. AND THAT'RE REALLY HUGE DIFFERENCES between PERS and FRS--> especially in year 2010 when the new FRS is effective from. The disclosures could just double the total pages.

Despite that, i really learnt a lot from just drafting the reports. I thank the team leader that i am under right now. She sincerely taught me the FRS which i think she could probably choose not to tell me.

Frankly speaking, in working world, people has the right to NOT TO HELP or NOT TO TEACH you a single thing, what would he/ she gets in return when he/she wastes his/her time teaching ?

I appreciated all the things i learned from this audit firm, all the helping hands that are just right there for me when i am stucked in a problem, all the guidances from the team leaders, the seniors, all the tolerance for mistakes i made,mall the joys that's brought to me.

Everyone is asking how much the firm is actually paying me that could make me willingly stay for two more weeks? Not frank answers i gave all the time. But a senior's words really reminded me of the ultimate purpose of the internship here.

He says:" Don't care how much they are paying you, if you 're staying for one more day with no pay, but with one more day experience that you're earning, it's far more worthwhile than the money that you'd be getting. The experience would get you richer. Don't just work but not learning like somebody"

I agreed his words. I know very well the purpose that i chose this firm but not the big fours. I just wanted to learn the most in the shortest time. As his saying. the experience would get you richer--> It's just another way of saying your fair value would get higher with more experience that you accumulate.

For the new trainees that've just entered or whoever that would be going intern soon, i wish you guys understand the saying above, care not that you're underpaid but overwork. You should be thankful that you're learning, learning to cope under stress, learning to have better time management and learning to communicate in the real adult world.

Once again, i am grateful though i'm actually groaning at the same time.

It's the end of six months internship, I have to go....but i do not know where i'm leaving for...,...

I am tired, but just not that willing to sleep...I'm sick, the coughing medicine just does not doze me off....

Four more

Date:27 March 2011

Duration:1121 pm

It's 27 March today and in four more days, i would need to come out three more years files and reports....This is such a terrible case.

I am counting down, left four more weeks aka one month before this intern end. I promised to stay for another two more weeks in this company. I guessed so in monetary term, it's a correct decision.

I am not so sure what case would i be handling soon. Right now, i am just in a hope that this case would end. GET IT DONE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE!!!!

I should sleep now. Night~~^^

The eighth

Date: 14 March 2011

Duration: 2241

Mood: Heavy eyelids

Counting down from 15 April, one more months or four more weeks left before i leave this company. As aforementioned in the previous post, it's a complicated feeling to leave or should i say, to choose to leave.

Within a month, seven had resigned and the eighth is appearing. He resigned as i expected. I heard about his plan to go for better opportunity in KL. Well, his resignation as the eighth is not to my surprise.

Seeing so many leaving, perhaps i should go for somewhere better, perhaps to a Company that could better take care of its employees--- be it in monetary term or career perspective.

I am not criticising the Company that i am currently in training with, it's just that maybe there is really somewhere better that could make eight people in a very short 30 days to made the same decision, the decision to leave for somewhere better, rather than being here.

Not to be denied, the people in this firm is really caring and willing to share, it is indeed a good place to learn, too bad, perhaps it's just not a better place to stay.

It's the very first time in this Company that eight left within a month, and i heard another two more are hesitating to leave as well. It's really hard to persuade people that the Company is compensating its employees well, isn't it?

It's a complicated feeling

Date: 27 February 2011

Duration:118am

My internship is drawing an end soon. I am counting down with six more weeks left.

The MMU lecturer would be visiting me and two more traineess in this coming Tuesday. I am not in worry at all as i know Grace, the manager( just being promoted as manger) would be complimenting our performance despite what mistakes we have done.

It's going to end soon and it's a complicated feeling right now. Where should i go after this? It's another tough decision to make. I feel tired after being assigned outstation for several weeks. I need a short break, perhaps right after this internship.

I reached Malacca at noon today, been sleeping for several long hours since i was home. I have no idea why am i still feeling that tired after such a good rest. Am i physically tired or mentally tired? Tired of entering office this coming Monday?

Perhaps i am tired of entering office, the office that filled with people with smiling faces, yet with unknown thought.

In that six months of training, if you are doing mistakes for the past three months, nobody would blame you, but for another remaining three months, if you are still doing mistakes, you are hell in big hot soup.

I am leaving, yet i do not know where should i be going. It's a complicated feeling.

Happy Chap Gok Mei

Date: 16 February 2011

Duration:756pm

Tomorrow would be the last day of Chinese New Year. Time really flies and here it comes, the end of chinese new year. I did not really celebrate the new year, neither did i feel the chinese new year mood. I guess so it's because i have to work outstation and being involved in a minor accident on the fifth day of chinese new year. The cheers for new years just end too soon for me. I could only feel the new year for five days and i have to start working.

Well, tomorrow is Chinese society's valentine's day, it's day when all the singles gather at the rivers, making wishes for meeting another half, and throwing mandarin oranges with the wishes made. It's tradition of Chinese and we are still doing that in this modern days. The only difference is just that handphone numbers are written on the mandarin oranges.^^

Today is Wednesday, two more days i shall be going back hometown. See my friends in malacca soon.

Broga Hill trip,here i come.^^

Get out and See More things.....

Date: 13 February 2011

Duration:507pm

I am in aparrtment right now. It's sunny Sunday. We all are working in apartment. Yesterday me and my senior worked as well. We needed to do some stock count. This is a busy weekend. It has been a month plus if interim audit is taken into account. It's time to hand in the finalised working papers and findings.

Stress is suppressing the seniors. I could see another two seniors with a team leader of Malacca being stressed out. They were home late in the midnight around 1 am. They seem rushing and their client is really not cooperative. Thanks God that me and my senior still meet kind people. Though the account is messy, the account officers we met are all very responsible and quite responsive.

Tuesday would be our deadline and we shall round up everything and submit to the partner. Being a trainee, i do not feel that much stress as seniors do. Well, i am glad that i learnt a lot. I see a lot of items that i knew i would not know if i were to stay in Malacca office, doing vouching all the time. Once again, thanks for the opportunity to " get out and see more things".

Though it is a working weekend, i enjoyed my days. I just hope it could be done as soon as possible.^^

Perhaps it's time to take a nap.It's Sunday afterall, i should be lazy for a moment.^^

^^'''

Date: 10 February 2011

Duration:921pm

It's nine and we are at the hotel, meeting the boss. I am sitting here, really have nothing to do.

They were discussing about issues of company that we are auditing. Well, the stock costing of this company is not that " realistic". I did not know the real situation as i was doing another sections which have little to do with stock.

I have not been blogging recently. I am in Johor Bahru, on job again. How i wish i could be home. It's the ninth day of Hokkien. In another word, it's the Chinese New Year of Hokkien. Tomorrow would be like the FIRST day of Chinese New Year for Hokkiens.

I am thankful to be here as i really think that i learnt more as compared to staying in Malacca. I realise there is difference between Malacca and JB's office - in term of people, in term of working culture, in term of leadership approach. JB's staffs respect people much. Everyone is equal.

I don't see this in Malacca office. The seniors here respect trainees more and would do everything themselves rather than " ordering" trainees around--> " please help me photocopy this", " Please take this down to the tax department".

I prefer the culture here. I am grateful to be trusted. Thanks for all the lucks i have.

I am leaving here soon. It's really cold here.

^^

Last working day ~

Date: 31 January 2011 duration:9.46pm

It's freezing cold these few days and i don't feel like bathing now. I reached home hours ago.

Today was the first day i entered office after two weeks leaving here. Well, there were not many left in the office. I could feel the tense in office, especially for those who're doing "HL"---> a listed company which is our biggest client.

I was continueing my JB's job, finalising everything and probably print the working papers out!

I would be leaving for JB again after CNY.

Isk!!! JB really got curse on ME!

I put on some weight ever since i was on job oustation. And i REALLY HATE IT!

I would do some planning and make them GET LOSS!

Tomorrow would be the last working day for the year of Tiger. I shall enjoy it~^^

HAPPY CNY YEAR!!!in advance.. two more days left. Wee... looking upon tomorrow night "FAMILY" reunion at Great World~^^

I am here...

Date: 17 January 2011

Duration: 929 pm

I am in an area very near to Singapore, Johor Bharu.

I just got to know today i would be coming here again after CNY.

The first day of being here is really tiring. Not much work was done today. Management account is not ready yet. We really did not compute much output today.

It's a relaxing day. I shall be going back Malacca this Friday and coming back again on Sunday.^^

Ganbateh Kudasai!! I guess so being here is much better than staying in Malacca. Neither staying in Malacca or Johor Bharu is a better solution.

"How you know?"

Date: 14 January 2011 Duration:1109pm

I would be leaving for JB again next week and it seems like i am the last one to know. This is so ridiculous when someone know i would be going oustation but i myself don't. The planning is such ridiculous.

I have to leave my hand empty before i leave for two weeks. I knew i could not escape from this JB job as i was doing interim for it. Well, i just do not expect it comes before CNY. CNY is just around the corner, and i feel a bit reluctant to leave home right now. Mum would be needing me.

I have no choice but to take it. I guess it would be better than staying in the current job - a no ending job i should say. Another point would be, i really do feel that JB staffs are far more sincere as compared to Malacca staffs. They are more united and truthful. I do not know about their commitment in works, but one thing for sure, they are more sincere. I still remember Ling Xiang bringing us "tang yuan" during the day of Dong Zi. He brought to client's office. Isn't that warm?

Perhaps Malacca staff seems friendly and easily approached, deeply inside, i still could not figure out what they are thinking - I doubted their sincerity.

I heard it's always full house in JB office at night - They stayed up late together in office. Well, not to be surpise JB staffs need to throw in much commitment since the branch hiring lesser employees but are taking much more listed companies.

I am not complaining, rather i am just stating my view point here.

Again, i shall thank for all this encounters which i know would only strengten me.

NiteZ!

It's Thursday!!

Date: 13 January 2010 Duration: 1005pm

I am tired.

Today work was not that rushing as last two days. I was following one of the seniors for outside audit last two days in Krubong. The job she assigned to me were not difficult. It's just that it took me some time to ensure everything was alright. I knew she was "complaining" that i was being slow even though she did not utterly say it out, her facial expression disclose her mind.

Well, i got nothing to blame. I just want to thank her for letting me doing new section that i did not touch on before. Thank you.^^ It's a good experience to work with her as well. You know what, being treated harshly would make you grow stronger. That's my belief.

After helping her, i needed to rush back to office to clear another files given by assistant manager. Yesterday was the first day i reached home around 930pm from the office. It would not happen again if i manage to get everything done in a more efficient and effective speed.

Today i was following another senior to Machap for DO voucing. I was doing vouching in two different location the whole day. Nothing much was being done. It's a relaxing day.

Not for tomorrow. My file has finally returned back from the partner. There are several review points that i need to clear. Well, i am not worry. The review points seems alright to me. It's kind of technical - it involves estate matters, whereby the company is owing to a director who had already deceased, yet no estate is established for this particular director.

I think it's alright to clear all the review points.

I am glad that i am given the chance to know about this estate issue. Estate issue seldom exist in most of the small cases. I learn more, and i appreciate it a lot.

^^ I am tired, i shall turn in now. Night.

Half Gone, Another Half left

Date: 10 January 2010

Duration: 1004 pm

Today is Monday of my thirteenth week in this audit firm. Half has gone, another half is left. How good it could be, it depends on what job is being assigned to me.

I was clearing files the whole day. I finished clearly one and a half files~^^ LOLZ.

I felt that i was a bit slow actually. These three companies are small with two companies being dormant and half a page of review points. Another company is my own handled company which is still considered small i guess with just RM 2,000 audit fees. The remaining two were around RM 800 audit fee.

The company desktop are so " annoying" with its super duper slagging speed. It hangs now and then i wonder why the desktop is still there. Desktops are publicly used, of course who would maintain it? Who would be maintaining especially tonnes of work loads is just right in front of you?

You should not be surpised the company desktop is still installing older version of Microsoft Office, making the situation worse. It would require conversion and updating or something running procedures, making the whole desktop hanged!!!It really slows down my work. It's not that i am slow, it's the facilities that're SUCKS!!

Seriously, if ever the partners want to have a thorough conversion from a NIGHT MARKET to a SUPER MARKET--> perhaps a little upgrade on the audit tools should be done first. How could you expect a man to chop 100 trees in a day with a splunt axe??

It's really troublesome to use the desktop of the company. What more could i do, when only the company " property" could access to server and printer?

The other trainee friend of mine who is working in one of the BIG FOUR in Penang gets a lappy from the company. Would not you feel more appreciated with such a small "token" or should i say " employee benefit"???

I would be going out audit tomorrow. Not a new job for me, i am just helping here and there. It would be much better than staying in the office, especially using that stupid PC.

OOOPPs, I left my stationery in the office!! Shoot!!! I need to go back office tomorrow before i off to client's place. ^^

BACK TO DECEMBER - Taylor Swift...recommending this song~

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life, tell me how's your family

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier then ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why'

Cause the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to december all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to december, turn around and make it all right

and

I go back to december all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping

Staying up playing back myself

leaving

When your birthday passed and I didn't call

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side,

Realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride, Standing in front of you saying

I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to december

all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and

I go back to december all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night,

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to december

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and

I go back to december, turn around and make it alright and

I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and

I go back to december all the time

All the time

FREEEEEEE

Date:3 January 2011

Duration:718pm

I am really free these few days. Both me and Sri( the trainees) are really free. We are trying our best to keep our hand tight. Last week, Sri was setting up files for 100 plus companies and i was helping him out just a little by filing in. ^^

I myself have few things to do, just seeing through files and working papers, re-print and do a little job here and there. Well, it was probable that we, the trainees have little capability to do so much. Seniors seem busy. We, the trainees seem really free.

I went to ask around " Do you have any job for me".... They were all smiling, including the manager.

It's a good start actually. I was bit weak-willed to do work ever since i came back from JB the day before Christmas. It's of very high probability that i would be leaving for JB again for the "UNFINISHED" job. The company year end is at 31 December. Indeed, it should be a job that has yet to BEGIN.

I shall take this week to rest before the real PEAK SEASON begins.

Be it a free time or a "packed" time, i appreciate every job that's assigned to me.

As i believe, you would still learn something there, it's just a matter of how you taking it.

CNY is just around the corner. Looking upon it.^^

ROCK on 2011!!!

Date:01/01/11

Duration:2121

H@ppy New Year!!!! It's a brand new year and i shall make a new year wish here. I WISH for GREATER LUCK and GREATER LOVE. I do not mean only receiving greater luck and greater love, rather i wish for giving greater luck and greater love to everyone around me at the same time of receiving them.

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I did not blog for the past few days in last year. Well, i was kind of busy, not in work this time, rather busy in SHOPPING~~~~~~~~I was busying shopping for the approaching Chinese New Year! Finally i got it done in last Thursday.

Friday, being the last day of last year, i was involve in stock taking for FYE 2010. It was a fun experience. I appreciated for the given opportunity to visit chicken farms. I visited several farms and see various stages of growing chicken. The only conclusion i could make here is :

Day-old-chicks( 3-day-old-chicks) are so adorable as compared to those OLD CHICKENS!!! DOCs are not that stinky!!!

They were so adorable, crumbled together in that cages, and would all run around when " stranger"-> that's me get any nearer.

It's a really tiring day but a really fun and precious experience of mine.

It felt more like a farm visiting instead of stock taking.

Before i end this post, i wish everyone has a brand new begining. Let's care not how was the previous year like, forgive the unhappiness, bring on the joy, cheer together and let's make this year a memorable one.

ROCK 2011!!!