It's a complicated feeling

Date: 27 February 2011

Duration:118am

My internship is drawing an end soon. I am counting down with six more weeks left.

The MMU lecturer would be visiting me and two more traineess in this coming Tuesday. I am not in worry at all as i know Grace, the manager( just being promoted as manger) would be complimenting our performance despite what mistakes we have done.

It's going to end soon and it's a complicated feeling right now. Where should i go after this? It's another tough decision to make. I feel tired after being assigned outstation for several weeks. I need a short break, perhaps right after this internship.

I reached Malacca at noon today, been sleeping for several long hours since i was home. I have no idea why am i still feeling that tired after such a good rest. Am i physically tired or mentally tired? Tired of entering office this coming Monday?

Perhaps i am tired of entering office, the office that filled with people with smiling faces, yet with unknown thought.

In that six months of training, if you are doing mistakes for the past three months, nobody would blame you, but for another remaining three months, if you are still doing mistakes, you are hell in big hot soup.

I am leaving, yet i do not know where should i be going. It's a complicated feeling.